With life becoming so unexpected, I can't help but think that I don't belong here anymore.
I feel like I did when I was 16....not having my own space to call my own.
I think that if I had to make a choice, I'd move to Michigan in a heartbeat. I wouldn't think twice. I love him and I know that things would work.
I just feel displaced.
5.13.2011
5.03.2011
Realization
I was browsing my Steam Community friends about 20 minutes ago and I realized that Him and I have been friends for 103 days. That breaks down to 3 months and 13 days. We've been together for about 3 months and 7 days. It just amazed me of how fast time is going by. 3 months together with him and it feels like only yesterday that we were doing all nighters, learning almost every detail about each other, and discovering new things that we didn't know about ourselves.
Our time so far has been a rollercoaster. We've had our amazing times in our "up" stage while at the same time struggling with the fact that we're 3 time zones away...which results in our "down" stage. Many people have asked me why I would be with someone who is 3 time zones away. They ask why I would put my heart out there and love someone I've never met. I don't usually talk about our personal life to others besides those I trust along with this blog. However, when/if I do choose to respond to their questions, I tell them honestly...that I love him. That I would rather wait and be with someone I know that I love and respect than to search for someone here in California and have to start all over. Him and I, we've broken ground already. We've laid down the foundation. We've built and established trust, communication, and love better than we both have ever been able to before.
And through one little realization today, I fell in love with him in a whole new way. Realizing that he's mine. I'm his. Nothing in this world could change that.
With love,
-stb-
Mrs. H
Our time so far has been a rollercoaster. We've had our amazing times in our "up" stage while at the same time struggling with the fact that we're 3 time zones away...which results in our "down" stage. Many people have asked me why I would be with someone who is 3 time zones away. They ask why I would put my heart out there and love someone I've never met. I don't usually talk about our personal life to others besides those I trust along with this blog. However, when/if I do choose to respond to their questions, I tell them honestly...that I love him. That I would rather wait and be with someone I know that I love and respect than to search for someone here in California and have to start all over. Him and I, we've broken ground already. We've laid down the foundation. We've built and established trust, communication, and love better than we both have ever been able to before.
And through one little realization today, I fell in love with him in a whole new way. Realizing that he's mine. I'm his. Nothing in this world could change that.
With love,
-stb-
Mrs. H
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